There comes a point in life when we take the roads which are the easiest options and keep paddling through them. The directions and the destiny which were once of the highest priority are all lost and gone haywire, the present is not so appealing but the future is unknown. The material pleasures which is driving the pursuit is not of that significance. The urge to do to something different from the entire clan and be independent is all lost.

What is behind it is, the urge to be secured, to be in company of people you love, and move away from the dirty corporate politics, and superficial behavior. The set up which rewards the cunning one and not the sincere one, a set up in which money is the inevitable supreme force and behind all kind of endeavors that man puts. basically to have that harmless playful playground again. But, then my mind pauses and asks will that be possible?

Sooner or later??

its a proven fact that a ferry keeps sailing ,paving its way through the violent

& turbulent weather!!!! in the same way i guess hope keeps clinging to the mind.

Though the outer appearance & the societal pressure may make us accept the

other side of the coin, the fickle mind may go & rest with the conviction of being

the child of the lesser God.But beyond this outer flamboyance the depth of the heart still keeps clinging to the hope (the best will only happen).

I am inspired to pen down this with a plethora of event in my own lyf.

I am expecting some thing to happen soon n I have all my hopes tied to it.

Every morning the first thing that strikes to my mind is

'Today it will be' & the dawn ends in despair.

It has become a routine affair for the past two

months but still I have the conviction that it will happen. Lyf can't be so ruthless to me.

Nothing particular with a being in accepting this . it is the conscience of

the human mind which makes each of us accept the best of all thoughts.

Though, seldom there are situations where some philosophical thoughts bug my mind but the omnipresence of few vitalities in my mundane affairs makes me do so.

Human beings by default have the tendency to see the world as if they were the king ordering everything around , governing things according to their own statutes, whims & fancies but unfortunately this is not true. The life keeps on giving stumbles & loggerheads & there are just a vital few who can see the life revolving around their own shrine.

This gives a tendency to judge, to do the naive task of judging the actions of others & complain for the difference. Even at the age of 22 I feel that I lack the maturity enough to except beings who are entirely different . Is it right to sit n criticize others just because they don't match my standards of right & wrong.

After so much of pruning around i feel that every individual has the right to live life by his/ her own ideologies & instead of judging that we ought to respect that.

Life would be very simple then!! Amen

Though i always carry a childish look on my face but the depth of the issues make me pause n look behind.

Sometimes, sitting alone in my room I wonder what does relationships actually mean??

Is it all about just the' give n take' relationship which i often encounter during my daily chores,or is their really an emotional bonding, a substance called blind love???? Do these words exist anymore??I am not talking about a particular relation here, my arena of thought covers every bit of the so called 'rishtey'.

Relationships have become hollow & fragile, there is a need of constant gratification & some material gifts to revoke & cherish them. Everyday newspapers are covered with news of divorce or with some lawsuit for inheritance or may be the ' very cliched saas bahu relationships'.

I have a sincere feeling that the vulture of this is just the expectations .In our fast paced world 24 hours seem short for our own chores n if we expect too much from the other guy a cleavage is bound to be created which may widen at its own pace.

One of my friend once said "Do not have much expectations & your agonies are solved".

I have followed this in my personal lyf & I can feel the difference.

Caution:I m trying my hand at writing for the first time

Life!!!

I often wonder what life is .Is it actually an intermingling of pain and sorrows or is it just the way we look at it????. Different kind of people , different attitude n different life styles.

If i am to look back at my own self i have changed a lot from what i was , both for the good and the bad. There is a kind of maturity that comes with experience, a kind of self respect that develops and a craving for material pleasures is imbibed. This material satisfaction gives innate soothing experience and all the worries in life are blown away.

After a certain time the ambitions come to a standstill. Activities which give immediate enjoyment lure us more.

I am not commenting on whether its right or wrong but sometimes i feel, Am i doing justice??Is this what I wanted from life some years ago???